Friday, December 11, 2009

Managed to settle some stuffs...


Bridesmaid settle list:- (DONE~!!!!!!)
1. Cocktail Dress (Black) from My Wardrobe @ Far
East
2. Cocktail Dress (white) from My Wardrobe @ Far
East
3. Morning & Evening Shoes (i gave on on evening shoes)
4. Dye Hair - Light brown
5. Cut Hair
6. Style hair
7. Makeup Style to do (Morning and Evening) - Morning - angel, Evening - smokey eye


Reality Checklist to do:- (DONE~!!!!!!)
1. Look 4 a room to rent
2. Pay Rent and Deposit
3. Move in
4. Settle Bed
5. Settle down
6. Get my health back

Emotional Checklist:- (DONE~!!!!!!)
1. Be Happy again (retail therapy)? (not in much need atm. To be done later.)
2. Cherish whatever I've got left

*last edited on 21/12/2009 @ 1106 hrs*
*last edited on 23/01/2010 @0147 hrs*

_~.:: <3 †Misha- <3 Alex ::.~_
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Thursday, December 03, 2009

I can't take it anymore...

why...

I'm feeling so fucking out of breath...

I can't breathe...

My mind's swirling...

I'm so affected...

Too damn affected...

Porcelain doll broke and fell to pieces...

After being mended again and again...

I desperately try and fix the pieces...

But...

Just can't fix it right anymore...

Not anymore...

no one bothers about me anymore right?

I'm so lost...

So saddened...

So tortured...

So dead...

Have I lost the will to live?

My answer is YES...

My Parents Divorcing...

HDB taking back the house as well?

Landlady is chasing me out...

Yeah...

Thanks...

I have no where to stay already...

I'm at my wits end...

I can't call out to anybody...

Even if I call out...

No one's there...

I can't think...

I have no support...

WHO CAN I TURN TO?

Practically no one...

Would somebody just stab me through my heart and end this miserable life I have...

Please...

SOMEONE FUCKING DISTRACT ME OR SOMETHING QUICK!

I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'LL DO ANYMORE...

I doubt anybody would happen to chance upon this post and read it...

but someone...

PLEASE...

WHY IS THERE PRACTICALLY NO ONE WHENEVER I NEED HELP...

MAYBE I'M MUCH BETTER OFF BEING DEAD...

_~.:: <3 †Misha- <3 Alex ::.~_
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